♐ April 28th [LOCKED FROM HOMURA AND SAYAKA;]

[stillneedawish]

... Walpurgis Night is coming in a few days, and only me and Homura-chan will be around to face it. There's only one grief seed left. Homura-chan doesn't know I have it, because it's - it's Sayaka-chan's. I picked it up after the other night, but...

I'm not going to use it. I know that there's not much chance that Homura-chan and I will finish this fight without dying or turning into witches, but it's not hopeless. I... to tell you all the truth, I'm a bit useless, so I can't do much of anything, not really, but Homura-chan... she can turn back time and do it all again. So I'm going to give the grief seed to her, so she can cleanse her soul gem after the battle's over. It's too late for me to undo all my mistakes, but... I still want to protect everyone, and if Homura-chan can go back and change everything to make it better... I think it's worth a shot.

So don't worry about me, everyone. I guess that, well, it seems like the community is following whatever timeline Homura-chan is in, so... when Homura-chan goes back again, I won't remember anything that's happened in my world. But you'll see me again, and I'll see you too! So please don't worry, okay? And please don't tell Homura-chan about this, either. I don't want her to worry any more than she is.

Comments

[glubspeak.livejournal.com]

[stillneedawish]

Walpurgis Night is the most powerful witch on Earth right now. We have to fight it, or our entire city will be destroyed, so... we don't really have a choice.

Homura-chan will be okay. I'll make sure of it. If I use the grief seed I have on her soul gem, it means that she won't turn into a witch. Once she turns back time again I... I don't think I'll know her any more, or remember we were friends, but I can do this.

[glubspeak.livejournal.com]

[stillneedawish]

Um, yes! I'm Kaname Madoka... in the Japanese order that is, he he. You can just call me Madoka. Are you Homura-chan's friend?

[glubspeak.livejournal.com]

[stillneedawish]

Oh! Um, a Japanse person is someone from my country, Japan... I guess you're not from Earth, right?

E-eh? ... Hehe, well, Homura-chan is one of my best friends. So I guess she's very important to me too.

[glubspeak.livejournal.com]

[stillneedawish]

Wh-what?! Really?!

... I'm not sure. Maybe. But the last time that Homura-chan did this, I think... I think that I must have turned into a witch, otherwise she wouldn't have been able to know that to tell us this time, right? So... maybe since Homura-chan is fighting with me, that's-- I-I suppose, that's what'll happen to me instead, after we beat it.

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

No.

[stillneedawish]

I'll be fine, Shinji-san. It - it's not going to be easy for a little while longer, but if Homura-chan turns back time again, it'll be like this never happened for me. At least, I think that's how it works.

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

Only people that are dying ever talk this way. You can't die. [not when you just became my friend] And even if you won't remember, you'll still have been in pain. Please, Kaname-san, don't.

[stillneedawish]

But if I don't fight Walpurgis Night, then everyone in my city will die. My family, and Sayaka-chan's family, and Hitomi-chan and her family... if I can still fight, then I have to, Shinji-san. Apart from Homura-chan, I'm the only one who knows what's really happening.

I'll be back soon, Shinji-san, I promise. And - and I might not remember this conversation, but I'll remember you! You're my friend, even if we haven't known each other very long. So please don't be sad, okay? This is something I have to do.

[childrenoflilim.livejournal.com]

[oh jaysus, remind him of the situation when fighting angels and rip out his heart at the same time why don't you]

....

This shouldn't happen to a good person like you.

[stillneedawish]

[ SOB SHE DIDN'T MEAN TO ;a; ]

... thank you, Shinji-san. I - I really wish that it hadn't happened, too, but it's too late for me to change my mistakes now. So I'll keep fighting with Homura-chan right till the end, and somehow she'll make sure things are alright. I know she will.

[cannotbelieve.livejournal.com]

Are you sure you don't need our help?

[stillneedawish]

I'm sure, Nagisa-san. I don't want anyone else to get hurt because of what's happening on our world.

[cannotbelieve.livejournal.com]

We don't want you to get hurt, either!

[stillneedawish]

I'm one of my world's magical girls. As long as I can still fight, I have to do this, but... that doesn't mean that other people should get dragged into this. A-and well, if Homura-chan turns back time like before, I should be back here and okay again soon, so it's alright.

[cannotbelieve.livejournal.com]

Why? You know what's going to happen!

[stillneedawish]

I know, but that's why it's okay. I - I know it's not going to be easy, but I know Homura-chan can fix things.

[cannotbelieve.livejournal.com]

...Madoka-chan.

[stillneedawish]

Hm?

[cannotbelieve.livejournal.com]

Even if the way you guys are is messed up compared to the rest of us, you're still one of us.

[shadow_spread]

You don't have any other resources?

[stillneedawish]

Since there were five of us working together before, we must have used all the other grief seeds up without realising it.

[shadow_spread]

There's nothing else you can use? No one else who can help?

[stillneedawish]

No. There's just us left. Maybe there are other magical girls in other towns, but we don't know for sure, and I don't think they'd have time to get here.

[shadow_spread]

Could someone from the community bring them?

[stillneedawish]

Maybe...? But I don't know who they are, or how to find them. I think the only one who would really know would be Kyubey.

[shadow_spread]

And you can't trust him.

[stillneedawish]

Definitely not.

[shadow_spread]

Then...good luck.

[stillneedawish]

Thank you, Sumimura-san.

[shadow_spread]

I'll see you soon.